Things have felt destabilizing lately.
Almost every external aspect of my life feels like it’s shifting, breaking apart, or being rearranged right in front of me.
Financially.
Relationally.
Emotionally.
Even parts of my identity.
So many things I spent years trying to preserve now feel unstable.
At first glance, everything looks like shambles.
But strangely enough, the most surprising thing is this:
Internally, I am not panicking.
And honestly, that surprises me.
Years ago, a season like this would’ve filled me with anxiety and fear.
I would’ve tried to force control over everything.
But now, even in the middle of uncertainty, I feel calmer.
Not careless.
Not detached.
Just… okay.
It feels like being on a roller coaster while somehow knowing deep inside that I am still safe.
That there is still something greater holding everything together.
And maybe that feeling comes from faith.
Or maybe it comes from finally understanding that life naturally moves through seasons of destruction, transformation, and rebirth.
As I celebrate my solar return today, I spent most of my time resting, reflecting, and looking back on life.
On who I used to be.
On the things I survived.
On the things I built.
On the person I am slowly becoming.
And despite all the uncertainty surrounding me right now, I feel excited.
Excited to continue living.
Excited to see what unfolds next.
Cliché as it may sound, I genuinely feel like this is only the beginning.
And somehow, deep inside, I feel that I am stepping into a more liberated, expansive, and multiplied version of life.